To be honest, I've been going back and forth for WEEKS now trying to decide if I should go forth with creating this blog.
Since starting my channel in 2015, God has laid such a burden on my heart to share bits of my story and things that He has been teaching me through social media, Youtube specifically. However, these past few months I've been feeling God leading me more into sharing my story through blogging and an online Bible study rather than Youtube, which is a scary step that feels almost like starting over. Did I mention I know NOTHING about leading an online Bible study or blogging? Yikes...
So over the past few weeks I've been signing up for blogging courses, scouring Pinterest and finding articles titled "How to gain 5,000 pinterest followers in 40 days," "how to build your platform and gain an audience on Instagram quickly," and "top Christian blogging tips." And to be honest, I was really excited and motivated for about a week, but I quickly became overwhelmed.
You see, in order to be "successful" in the blogging world according to many of these articles, you have to create 2-5 blog posts per week, post high quality photos with relevant hashtags to Instagram 1-2 times a day, have a constant Pinterest presence and a Twitter following, and be engaged and commenting on other peoples blogs daily. All of these articles were written by successful bloggers and had great advice!
But ya'll. WHO HAS TIME FOR THIS?!! #realtalk
I don't know about you, but I'm totally a perfectionist. It's one of my worst faults! The thought of failure terrifies me and often deters me from even wanting to try. Maybe you're the same! Or maybe your struggle with perfectionism is with your appearance. We live in a world plastered with advertisements and images on social media who seem to have the "perfect body" in the eyes of the world, and it's so easy to feel less than if you aren't a size 2. Believe me, I get that struggle.
However, your perfectionism is killing you when you let it keep you from doing the very thing God has called you to do!
It's important to always strive to do your best, God calls us to do that! " In Colossians 3:23 it says whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord and not for man. (ESV) However, We must remember WHO we are working for! Your perfectionism begins to kill you when you place your identity in what the world thinks of you rather than the truth of your identity in Christ.
In this world, we will NEVER measure up according to the worlds standards. There will always be someone prettier, skinnier, and more successful. But my favorite thing about Scripture is how God uses the least likely candidates to proclaim His name. God's strength and grace are displayed through our weakness and imperfections!
"I do not look with disdain upon my weaknesses. I see them as an opportunity for God to display His powerful strength and grace through me." 2 Corinthians 12:10
Through all of this I realized that God ISN'T calling me to have perfectly staged Instagram photos, a large Twitter following, relevant hashtags, or a perfect blog. But He IS calling me to share what He lays in my heart in the very best way that I can. Am I photographer, no! Am I really even a writer? No! Will I have grammatical errors, fail to have catchy titles, and skip a week every now an then? Yes! However, He is faithful to equip the called to fulfill what He calls us to do! Whether that be writing a blog, starting a ministry, or opening a business.
For He who calls is faithful.
God hasn't asked us to be perfect. Jesus was the only perfect person! What He has asked us to do is let go of our perfectionist mindsets and let Him lead the way. If God calls you to do something He isn't going to say "well, good luck!" and walk away! He will be there with you every step of the way.
Is there something that you feel God calling you to do that maybe is out or your comfort zone? Are you letting your perfectionism get in the way of the purpose God has for you?? It is my prayer, that together you and I would push that mindset aside and abide in Christ. He equips us, and through Him and Him alone can we find the strength to fulfill His callings in our lives.
"Abide in me, and I in you, No branch can bear fruit by itself."